In short, the last six months have kind of sucked. And the last month has been the worst.
Things are looking up for me, in the sense that I will be able to take care of my health and have a more stable place to cook, have a routine, etc., and that’s good. However, there has been something of a wakeup call.
I signed on my own apartment two Fridays ago. On the same day, I found out that my father has cancer.
They caught it early enough that is hasn’t spread, as far as we know. He had surgery to have his tonsils and lymph nodes on one side of his neck removed yesterday, where the cancer was located. (Fun fact: HPV causes throat cancer in men, while it causes cervical cancer in women- And that’s what caused this.) He’s come through fine, but he’ll likely have to go through radiation/chemo and change his lifestyle a lot to stay healthy.
The doctors have basically said that a predisposition for the cancer was there because both of his parents had cancer to begin with. Both sides of my family have had multiple types of cancer, and on top of my food allergies and generally terrible health, I’m sure it’s only a matter of time before we start looking for it in me. On top of that, I’ve been exposed to huge amounts of radiation from x-rays through years of treatment for scoliosis, sinus problems, and foot issues.
As of right now, I’m not sure what’s going on with my health. I’ve lost a chunk of hair the size of a pretty large bottle cap in the center front of my scalp. I’ve experienced psychosomatic itching for three days straight from stress that disappeared as quickly as it came. My usual primary care doctor told me it was stress and waved me off, but when I went into an urgent care for the itching, they took blood to test because the hair loss is cause for concern. Maybe it is stress. Maybe something else is wrong. I have no idea, but I would like to find out soon.
I’m also experiencing anxiety and depression symptoms, which is less than ideal. I’m trying to get in with a psychiatrist to find solutions for those problems, because it’s affecting my ability to function at work and otherwise.
Despite everything, I’m trying to take time to start taking care of myself again. I haven’t exercised in months, I’ve been eating anything, including foods I’m allergic too, and I’m not gaining anything from these behaviors at all. It’s not making me happy, and in fact it’s likely aggravating all of the other issues I’m having. So I’m making a change, and I’m going to stick with it, because I don’t want my chronic illnesses and fatigue to end up killing me, or opening the door for something worse.
Yesterday was moving day. I had plans to exercise, but carrying everything I own up thirty stairs into an apartment at least forty times in ninety degree weather definitely qualifies as cardio. Today, I went to my first yoga class at Corepower Yoga. It was hard, but manageable, and it helped a lot of the tension I have in my muscles from working a standing job. I’m going to be taking at least one class a week in hopes of managing my stress and working on my flexibility.
The new condo is in a neighborhood with recreation centers that are included in your annual dues, so I have access to four different facilities with pools, exercise equipment, and a lot more. I’m going to be incorporating cardio and strength into my routine at least five days a week. There’s also a pole fitness studio opening nearby in August, and I plan to begin taking classes there once a week again, as well.
Eating is going to be difficult. Right now I’m working on smoothies, because I am living in a place cluttered with boxes and like no food, plus no time to cook yet because work and life has been a nightmare. I’m going to be seeing a nutritionist soon to help me figure out how to get the nutrients I need on such a limited diet, which should definitely help me.
This has been a really long post about things that probably aren’t important/relevant to you, or anything you care about, but that’s what’s been going on. I’m going to do my best to start using this again regularly to record my efforts and progress, as well as continue posting resources from other blogs related to healthy living and fitness.
Thank you for following, despite my absence and lack of activity. I appreciate your patience, and I’m sorry I’ve been gone for so long.